Circle is Closed!

Circle is closed.

Maybe next year.

Those are my sentiments, and also the sentiment expressed to me by others.

“Maybe next year”.

Honest, I am not repeating this as an insult or with an attitude.  I am saying it (writing it) very matter a factly.  Maybe. Next. Year.

Or maybe not.  I live my life in such a way that I do what I WANT.

There is not anything in my life that I do NOT do where I say….maybe next year.

Not because there is anything wrong with saying that, but to me words are spells.  They are so powerful.

“Maybe” is a pretty weak spell.  It doesn’t mean anything other than sounding like it’s all up to the whim of the Universe.  Which in part I believe.  Bu intention is powerful and “maybe” (to me) is devoid of power.

“Maybe I’ll step into my power”…or maybe I won’t.  Because it’s usually easier to NOT do the thing.

As for “next year”, we shall see!  I know of no guarantee in life that says you or I will be here next year!  Literally or metaphorically.  My time with Circle is intentional and even tough I created her….I know not her wishes.  

Could be that “next year” changes, or I change the structure or I just decide to not open circle up to new people ever again.  

Anything could happen.

I realize this might sound bitter, but truly it’s not feeling that way in my body.  If you feel like it is NOT the time for a thing, or decision, or person, or life change….then it is probably not.

There is nothing NOTHING wrong with owning that.

It is either right or not right in your body, whatever it is.

Honor that.  Feel that.  Respect your own boundaries.  Do the work.

That is all each of us can do….as for next year…..who knows?!!

Oxoxo

Maryn